Fire

آری، آری ، زندگی زیباست زندگی آتشگهی دیرنده پا برجاست گر بیفروزیش، رقص شعله اش در هر کران پیداست ورنه، خاموش است وخاموشی گناه ماست سیاوش کسرایی / / / / / Life is like fire, can burns forever. If we turn it on we can see flame dances from far away, other wise its dark and thats our fault.

GHALB-E- MAN
mon hearto!
ghalbe man kochoolost.
ghalbe man doost darad ke sabz bashad. harchand ke medani , emrooze be range cheshmane tost.
dar ghalbe man shaghayegh meparvard, shaghayeghi ke vaghti be entezare labkhande to meneshinad par par meshavad. harchadn ke ghalbe man doost dasht ke dar an roz berooyad, ta har kas ke oo ra be bazi megereft, tighi bar dastanash foroo mebord.
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ghalbe man mekhahad ke tamame eshghe donia ra dar khood jaye dahd, va bar mardoman taghseem konad, harchand ke khoob medand, kasi baraye ooo care nemikonad.
ghalbe man mekhahad azad bashad az gheydo bande donia, va eshgh haye zamini, ama che konad ke labkhande faribandeye tooo ooo ra dar kam mekeshad.
ghalbe man sadeh ast, ba salami, ba cheshmaki roozha dar asemane khial parvaz mekonad, ghaleb man deer fahmid ke ziabyee labkhande to faghat neshaneye adabe tost.
ghalbe man, hata magzhe man bavar nadasht ke to mara chenin be khater dashteh bashi, heif ke hich kodameshan nemidanestand, ke in yadegari az bahooshiee tost, na anke mara doost medari.
ghalbe man ba khiale booseye to be didare khoorshid meravad bar faraze abrhayee sepid, ama nemnidanad ke ta key bayad faghat dar khial bashad.
ghalbe man doost dasht dar khalvate khood to ra perfect bekhanad, ama hich gah nafahmid ke chera naiamadeh dar ra bar rooyash basti.
ghalbe man khili sadeh hast. ghalbe man hanooz ham dar entezare ghadamhaye too fale hafez megirad.
ghalbe man doost dasht ke mardom ra doost bedarad baraye anche ke anha hastand, na baraye dar amadaeshan, na baraye tahsilateshan. ghalbe man dad mezad ke savade bishtar neshaneye behtar boodan nist, ama heif ke dar meyar haye maghzam hanooz savad aval bood.
ghalbe man harja "special k" medid, yade to meoftad, ghalbe man harja pirahani abi medid an ra baraye to mekhast begirad. ghalbe manhargahe chiziee sweaty medid an ra baraye par mekhast begirad,va harah be fekre romantiki dasht an ra baraye madarash mekahst,
ghalbe man medanset ke pedar narahat ast az oo, bekhatere lebashayash, va amdar bekhatere moohayash, ghalbe man khoodash ra doost darad ba hameye rikhto pach hayash. ghalbe man nemikhahad kasi oo ra spoil bedanad, harchadn ke oo shekanandeh ast.
ghalbe man az bachegi mekhast ke siasatmadar beshavad ta be mardomaash komak konad, ta keshvar ra nejat bedahad. ghalbe man doost dasht baraye mardomash bejangad, gahlbe man arezooo dasht be zendan beravad, ghaleb kochoolooye man arezoooyash in bood ke be zendan beravad va siasi bashad, ama ghalbe man khoob medand ke baziee siasat "animal farm"i bish nist.
gahlbe man doost dasht baraye demokrasi jan bedahad, baraye azadi bayan. gahlbe man mekhast dare zendan ha ra baz konad, ghalbe man roozi mekhasa be tamamie khanevadehaye bedehkaran khaneyee bebakhshad, ghalbe man roozi mekhast daramadash ra miane bedehkarane dar zendan mandeh tagsheem konad. ghalbe man khoob medanad ke demokrasi arezooye khami bish nist, ba khoob medand ke baraey hefze manafe, hamishe be fogahra ehtiaj hast.
gahlbe man mebinad ke turkie hamsayeash araagh ra be $ forookht, ghalbe man medand ke u.s fagaht baraye oil adam mekoshad, va khoob ham medand ke france fagaht baraye sahme nafte khoodash mokhalefe jang ast, ama ghalbe man ba inhal be tazahorate zede jang meravad.
ghalbe man khoob medand ke kasi ra ba oo kari nist, ama hanooz ham be omide eshgheee metapad.
ghalbe man medanad ke jaye eshgahhaye ostooreyee digar nist, ghalbe man medanad ke ba film bazi kardan va doroogh goftan metavanad bemaghsood beresad, ghalbe man medanad ke hame medanad ke hame chiz doaroogha ast, ama ghalbe man hanooz ham sadeh ast, che dar zeere derakht che dar bajeye bank

Bunch of assholes
i hate all of these ppls, all of them
from azita who insult every body and can't even respect any body just her and her Ramtin, till fariba who insult and thinks she is funny, asshole, 2 mins ago she was oh pantty jan thanx so much, ilove u sort of thing, cuz i fixed or i worked out about his notes on net, s, t she couldn't do it for her self,and now she is like, y we need u, go dowanstiars, and she thinks she is funny, and asking y u r stairng at me,
i hate Y, and K, i hate Mome too, and i hate mohsen. even sss, and my self,
i'm tired and angry and full of hatered.
there was a time i was full of love and peace,
and there was a time i was full of emptiness.
and now i'm full of hatred.
thats the last line, the hatred may go on, or the circle may repeat,
and i will remain with my self, and those bunch of ppl,. who r assulting.
my self and centre f universe or my self who is the centre of universe.
i'm even tired of talking philosophyically.
i hate myself when iam anable to do things,
i hate myself when nobody cares for me, well nobody cares for any body anyway, untill they r in luv.
but y should u care for some assholes? i even not in the mood of reading L's emails, he even send me mail hen he is chetting.ask who is feeling good? nobody gone answer u. that stupid guy doesn't know my name yet, and tought i am arab. i can't even show s.1 that i am angry of them, and make them do s.t for me, s.t that they suppose to do beofre, such an enable.
tired of ebing 24 in just couple of months and not having a fuked of bf.
tired of being such a sucker. and get neglected all the time.
tired of even par make fun of me, or even sss. nad telling me that i'm not suppose to go to club with u, and know that he is right.
don't know y i should be like this. he is fuking and "rapping" or at least talking about it, and i fell in luv for a superficiall smile. such a looser.
i hate my self fellin g in luv for that guy, having crush on him for so long, and tehn he turns up to be "busy" and have to study....
i hate the way all these "polite" guys behave, Y and k, the same damn way, u think they care, and u find out not even as much as spending 5 mins....
i hate players like Mome, and Ard. i even hate shokoo, how the hell in the workd she can stood up 3guys, and i'm s o unable to find just 1.
or even Ro, being so mean....
who cares, they r enjoying their fukin lives, and i'm seating here writting for computer and crying, such a stupid spoil kid.
gone go study elecro

Hu
Hi, I have Electrodynamics exam tomoroow, I want to study really hard. There are lots of things to talk about, I saw K on line, I was waiting for him for around 3 hrs, and he told me he had presentation next week! and he is busy, didn't reply my mail either, being busy!!!!. for presentation next week, how many exam time did i spend thinking of him?
The shutlle disapear at space, 7 ppl died, every body are so sorry, and I was wondering just becouse these ppl they are working for NASA or beacouse after lots of compettition these ppl choose to go to space and they died doiing what they loved to do, and their family are get lots of support form goverment, Is that the reason ppl are sad?I was wonder ing whats the diffrence bettween these ppl and if they were 7 regular ppl who worked in minary and they would have died by collision, while they didn't have any insurance and nobody knew them, and they child might have starve after thier death. my dad was telling me that I'm jelouse, He told me because they study and they knew alot, they weren't just normal ppl,[they were better ppl than others] so thats why we are sad.
If its so, then Y is much better person than I am, cuz he is much smarter than me, and even Mome, is better person than I am. Is that a truth?
I will go and study my electro....
BUT I'm sure just becuz u study more, it doesn't make ur personality better than others. doesn't make u a better person, and doesn't mean whatever u r saying is right, and doesn't give u any right to be more respectful ....(is that truth?)
I will go and study as much as I can, I won't waste any of my mooment to night. at least I'm sure I won't think of K tonight, no damn way.
I might just think of Y. "Dr. Y"
"Dr.Y"
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